Desperation
One of the strongest and most intense emotions, fortunately infrequent for us, is desperation. An emotion that can be experienced in two distinct but interconnected situations: the loss of what we have and the realization of the mature awareness that the things we believe we can control and obtain follow a path that transcends our will to act on them. An illusion, that of control, which resolves itself in the denial of such reality, which possesses the positive property of intrinsically linking to the fallacious thought that our existence extends beyond the boundaries of our perception. What madness it would be if we were incapable of the meager talent of forgetting to perish? We would die of despair.
Desperation, pure desperation, is what we feel when things go wrong, when we lose everything we hold dear—friends, material possessions, and finally, the person we cherish the most. I've depicted this restless manifestation of our inner world by drawing a highly stylized and abstract face, in the act of disintegrating under the intensity of the emotion it expresses, tearing it into many pieces. The scene is highly dynamic; the face is fragmenting in all directions, losing touch with its own human nature, transfiguring, acquiring features that go beyond human comprehension. The features, the eyes, the hair have vanished, replaced instead by subtle raised lines and vivid colors that give an electrifying and evanescent effect. The background, heavily distorted and blurred in some areas, appears to be the stage for a powerful energy, as if it were the victim of an unimaginable explosion—the explosion of all the anger and negative emotions associated with it, accumulated over time, concretizing in the dissolution of the matter that contained them, radiating into space and dispersing in a myriad of irregular colors and shapes in motion.
Artwork details:
Size: 5000x 5000 pixels
Resolution: 4K